Police, release me let me go.......

I have been having a trauma avec the police. Yesterday a police officer did a u-turn and gestured for me to follow him and said I had been driving and using my mobile phone. I had not, and my call register showed that, but he made me feel very upset. He didn’t listen to me, he checked my record ( one red light in 1982 and a broken tail light in 2003) and ‘gave me the benefit of the doubt’ . He inferred that if my mobile was in my bag I could be ringing up all the time. I was so upset as I felt intimidated and powerless. I was sick 3 times when I went home and I did that gulping kind of crying and I shook for an hour.. I wasn’t talking on the phone, I am the person least likely to talk on a mobile in the car. I let it ring out and pull up and stop the car and ring back – if at all. I had just had my hair cut, and at every red light I had hitched up my sunnies and tried to get some shards of hair out of my eyes. They don’t brush your face for health reasons now. My friend Di came and picked me up and we went to see the Duty Sergeant, and although he started off defensive and unfriendly, in the end he was quite nice, and said I should always carry my phone as it was a safety issue. He said the police officer is a good one, and I know he probably is, and just doing his job, but the way he made me feel was not a good way. The Duty Sergeant will ring back tomorrow evening, but I have made an appointment to see the counsellor I saw when I got sick and had to leave work. I know now I have stopped being in my irrational reptilian fear mode, that it was the loss of control and the powerlessness I felt that made me feel so bad. I cope well if I can plan things, think them through and be prepared, like when Vundy the German Shepherd had to be put to sleep : I knew it was coming and was prepared, but I was not prepared for this confrontation at all. I expect it meant nothing to the policeman, it was just another stupid woman denying a traffic infringement. He probably went off to have lunch. He may have had a boogelly person before me. I did have the presence of mind to write down his badge number, and I know I should have asked to see some ID and asked for his name but I was too intimidated. I felt that if I did he would come after me. ( See, irrational reptilian response!!) I have some closure at least, but it has made me fretful and worried when I drive, and I have had to wrap my mobile in a zip lock bag and sticky tape it up so if I am ever pulled up again I can prove I have not been talking on the phone.
Then , to top it all off, the Labradors at the almond berry cake with coconut topping I had made for Di and Mark. Di took me to her house and we had fish and chips and cups of tea. I didn’t sleep well, but I am kind of a bit OK now. This morning I went to school and analysed the data from the maths tests last year and this afternoon the Labradors have a play date with Aunty Cathy , Alex and George!!!! OK I am sure there is a spelling error somewhere but I am too tired to read my whole thing and find it, I am not good at editing today.
OK, we have been to visit Cathy and her girls and the Labradors have had a lovely time. You can read about it on their blog : http://2dogblog.blogspot.com/
Almond and Berry Cake
250 g butter
1 tspn vanilla extract
275 g caster sugar
3 eggs
100 g plain flour
150 g self raising flour
60 g almond meal
150 g berries of your choice ( I am generous and use more!!)
and for the topping
50 g plain flour
2 tbspn caster sugar
40 g butter
15 g coarse coconut
Preheat oven to 180 C ( 160 ff) and grease and line a 23 cm square or round tin. Cream the butter, sugar and vanilla and then add the eggs one at a time. Mix in the flours and meal and then spoon into the tin. Top with the berries. To make the topping, rub the butter into the flour, add the sugar and coconut. Mix well. To top the cake, take a small handful and squeeze gently and crumble in clumps over the berries. Cook for about 50 minutes, cool in tin for 10 and then finish cooling on a rack. Lovely warm with ice-cream or custard, or cold as a cake!!!